ambiguous, equivocal, unsure, incertain, uncertain, contraspective, self-contradictory, paradoxical, conflicting, contradictional, more...

certain, decisive, resolute, determined, unwavering

indifferent, neutral, uncommitted, undecided, more...

of two minds,   morally ambiguous,   love but hate,   bad but also good,   both love and hate,   both good and evil,   to love and hate,   feeling meh,   morally conflicted,   conflicted look